Which is better than not typing at all. Doing my best which isn’t very good to be honest. Still, it’s better than nothing. Doing my best. I’m tired of explaining to people that, no, I’m not suicidal just because I am not upset at the thought of dying. I will die. We all will. I’m not alone in finding life hard. I’m not alone in not wanting it to be so hard. I’m not going to put more work into ending my life. It’s hard enough. I’m also not the only person who is not happy with the way my life is going. What can I do? I get up each day and breathe in and out all day long. I try not to throw up from the constant dizziness. I try not to get so bored I’m willing to do almost anything. One thing about being in chronic pain – one can do stuff – more than with dizziness. Who would’ve thunk I would find anything worse (more boring) than living in constant pain?